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College Education

He tried to raise cattle. That didn’t pan out that well. He tried his hand at remodeling houses and pretty much lost everything he had back when he was twenty-one years old. Oh well, that’s the past.  And now, oh well, now is all he has left.  That’s all any of us really have is the now.  We can’t live in the past and we certainly can’t live in the future.  Although many of us do try our hand at that even if we can never seem to make it all come together.

He sits there all alone in his creakity old chair.  It’s no different from any other time at two in the morning now.  The only light in the living room is the orange glow at the tip of his cigarette.  Usually says he can’t sleep for one reason or another.  Is it a lie? Well, you figure it out.  He takes a drag – inhales slow, pushes his mouth towards the ceiling and lets the smoke come out in one slow – long – swirl.  Flicks his ashes in the bottom of the rolled up cuff of his jeans and sighs.  Coughs and tries to clear his throat. Inhales  as the glow of his cigarette lights up the dark room once again. That’s been his usual routine for these past five years.

Just a common man without much education.  He’s worked hard all his life – not a paper pusher as he says.  But a man who worked with his hands and made a living sweating.  Not that he has anything against paper pushers.  It’s just he never could understand how someone could get paid to push papers and push buttons on a computer all day long. Never made much sense to him.

Tonight I’m spending the night with Dad.  Mom passed away just this past October.  Dad seems more restless than usual tonight for some reason. As he shifts and turns in his chair I hear every creak and moan of the worn out recliner from a nearby bedroom.  I wish just once he would stay in bed for an entire night!

Well now Dad is making it so that I can’t sleep either tonight. I just had to drive 500 miles from Houston to get here and now this! I wipe the crusted sleep from my eyes, roll over and grab my t-shirt and jeans that are laying on the dresser nearby. I slither them on as best as I can without any light and in the process bang a glass of water sitting on the same dresser.  Ice cold water drenches my bare feet. “Man – that water is cold”.

I latch on to my cell phone and push a button so that I have some sort of light to make my way to the living room. I look through the arched door opening to the living room and see that glow of his cigarette staring me in the face.  “Hey Dad”.  “Hi Son.”, he says.  “Why don’t you get up and go to bed Dad?”  “I would if I could Son.” “I just keep thinking, maybe I should have got a better education in my life so as to take better care of you kids and your mom somehow.”, he says.

“Oh now come on Dad, you worked 35 years down at the steel company every single day. It was hot and hard work!  You gave the best you could to your family.”  “And besides that Dad. Do you know you gave me more by not giving me everything I wanted in life?  You gave us all a roof over our heads and food on the table.  We never once went without food or a place to live.  And you taught us about the LORD – not by just what you said, but by what you did.”  ” If I had it to do all over though son, I would have gone to college.”, he says.

“Why’s that Dad?”  “Oh, to make something of myself.” he says. ” Can I just tell you something Dad?”  “When I was a little boy, I looked up to you.  And even though I’m all grown up now I’m still looking up to you. I am the man I am today because of you, and even though you might not know it, you’ve made something of yourself.  I love you Dad.”

“Thanks son, today you’ve given me more education than I could have ever had at any college”


In honor of all hard-working dads and moms!

My Letters From the Heart

Answered Prayers

Prayers Answered




Public Domain Photo

Public Domain Photo

Your heart hurts bad

It really makes me mad


Not a day goes by

That questions don’t fly

I wish I had some answers for you

I really, really do


From joy to sad

That’s what makes me mad





Give me your tears

For all those years 

That could have been

And should have been 


How can I not be sad 

To see the joy that others have

That you could have had

You can’t discern

One day, it will be your turn


Your joy will be here

Even now, it’s so very near

I know your heart hurts bad

Try to turn from this valley of sad


Can’t you see

The light of joy will shine on you and me

Great Memory

NASA Hubble Space Photo

NASA Hubble Space Photo – Nebula in Milky Way Galaxy

How many names can you remember of the people you have met in the past?  I have a hard time remembering the names of someone I met even a few months ago.  I do much better remembering faces.  I know there are little tricks and tools you can use to remember names to associate with the faces, but I just never really learned those tricks.

Can you imagine being able to remember more than 150 sextillion names?  Yes, that’s 150,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 names!  There are more than 100 billion stars in our galaxy which is known as the Milky Way.  There are also probably more than 150 billion galaxies outside of the Milky Way.  The Sun is 93 million miles away from planet Earth.  The closest star to us is Alpha Centauri which is really a triple star system that is bound together by gravity.  Alpha Centauri is 4.24 light years away from us or approximately 25 trillion miles.  That just gives you the magnitude of our galaxy alone and how big GOD really is.

 GOD created all of the stars and all of the galaxies in existence.  In Psalm 147:4 KJV it is written “He telleth the number of the stars, he calleth them all by their names.”  All I can say is wow!


Human T Cell

Human T Cell – NIAID – Wikimedia Commons

Scientists have determined that an average person weighing approximately 154 pounds has roughly 70 trillion cells. Yes, that’s 70, 000,000,000,000 cells in one single human body.  There are approximately 7.125 billion people on planet earth today or approximately 5 octillion human cells in existence.  GOD created every cell just like the stars and knows about every cell.  “I will praise him; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are thy works, and that thy soul knoweth right well.” Psalm 139:14 = KJV.

What a big and amazing, all-knowing, all-powerful GOD!  He is so big and great, and yet he cares and knows about each of us and what we are going through at every moment in our lives. He knows about every single cell. He knows each or our names and has inscribed them on the palms of his hands.  He cares about our welfare and has great plans for us just like all of his creation.

The Road Ahead

Fort Gibson Lake

Peace and Destruction

This is a peaceful scene of a Japanese fisherman fishing off a bridge in the mountains.  This hand painted and signed Japanese silkscreen painting has something that is not so very peaceful associated with it though.  As a matter of fact it is the opposite of peace and relates to utter and complete evil. and destruction.  Perhaps you will be able to understand what I am referring too with a little more information to follow here.

The painting was given to my father-in law by an architect in Detroit, Michigan many years ago when he was working with him on some projects as a contractor in the Detroit area.  My father-in law, Albert Petrucci was close friends with an architect named Minoru Yamasaki who gave him this painting at the conclusion of one of the projects they worked on together.  Minoru came to Detroit in 1945 and started out working for a firm called Smith, Hinchman & Grylls, and then went on to form his own firm called Yamasaki & Associates.

Minoru Yamasaki is best known for the design of the original twin towers called the World Trade Center towers in New York City.  At one time, the towers were the tallest in the world at 1368′ and 1362′ tall.  The towers were destroyed on September 11, 2001 when al-Qaeda Islamic terrorist flew American Airlines planes into the buildings. The buildings stood for more than 30 years and were leveled within 1 hour and 42 minutes on that fateful day when almost 3000 people were murdered.


John 10:10 KJV

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

John 14:27 KJV

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you.  Let not your heart be troubled, nether let it be afraid. 


How May I Help You


Then Came The Son

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Then Came the Son

They say my eyes are always red

How would they like to be me instead

My mouth tastes salty and dry

I smell peppermint candy nearby

Grab a piece and give it a try

I hear the hands of the clock moving slow

Maybe its time to go

I clash and bash in this never-ending fight

Oh deep dark blanket of the night

All hope has vanished from my sight

Ice cold tears drop one by one to a puddle on the sheet of my bed

I turn one way, then another to rest my hair frazzled head

Worn with worry and the grip of life

There is too much in this strain and strife

I turn to face the sky

Reach up my hand and ask why

Why … Why….. Why….

Then comes the SON

The only ONE

A warm hand illuminated by some bright white light

Reaches down to mine in that dark night of fright

Cascading from heaven above

Pulsating and filling me with his pure love

Then came the SON

The only ONE

Help! I’m Stuck


The largest elevator manufacturer in the world is Otis Elevator company.  Otis was founded way back in 1854 by Elisha Otis in Yonkers, New York.  Otis carries the equivalent of the world’s population on its elevators every 9 days.  Yes, seven billion people travel on Otis Elevators every nine days.  If you have ever been to the Eiffel Tower or the Empire State building then you have most likely ridden on an Otis elevator.  Sometimes though, elevators do get stuck between floors, or the doors might not open for a variety of reasons.  Hopefully, you have not been one of those unfortunate few.

So what do you do if you get stuck on an elevator?  The first thing you don’t do is to panic.  The second thing I would recommend you not doing that really won’t help much is to cry!  The opportunity might give you a chance to make some friends during your stay rather than just looking straight ahead, down at the floor, or up at the ceiling.  Don’t worry, on average most stuckees are freed from the elevator on average within thirty minutes.



Elevators in the United States are highly regulated and are inspected at least yearly by a state inspector who will only approve an elevator after a series of rigorous tests.  Elevators typically have a push button which is tied to an automatic dialer.  Once the button is pushed a called is automatically placed to a 24 hour emergency monitoring system who will in turn call the elevator company and management to notify them of the problem.  Some cities also require that the call be tied into the local fire department.  Most dialers do not however, automatically dial 911.  I suppose the reason for that is that is much too easy for someone to push the button and walk out of the elevator as a prank. The 911 center needs to receive only true emergency calls.

The call from the elevator is usually audio recorded with the time and duration and any call activity information recorded.  The operator will also respond with help even if the caller is deaf or can not communicate back for some reason.

If we get stuck in life we do have someone who we can go to who doesn’t even need an automatic dialer button.  Hopefully we have been talking to him all along way before we get stuck.  Thank you GOD for being with us always in the elevator of life, in our ups and downs, and when we get stuck. Thanks for being there for us and with us every day so that we don’t have to panic.